The Past Week

Taking a class about the psychology of sports injury right after having surgery probably wasn't one of my brightest ideas. Not only do I have to crutch to class I have to endure a 3.5 hour reality check of my entire college career. I never thought it would be so hard to not only thinking about the recovery I am going through but to revist all those past memories, emotions, and unfortunate events. I have learned so much about myself once again and how fortunate I am to always have my faith and God right there with me. I have no idea how I could have gotten through my college career without it. Throughout my college career I am learning and growing more than I ever could have imagined.

Taking this coaching job with all these little kids running around has made me realize just how much I can use my platform as a D1 athlete and teach them about sports, life, and ultimately God when that opportunity presents itself. A few phrases that I just can't get over are :

"Hey Dad, My coach is a Big 12 athlete!"

"So you threw that far, I suppose I will listen to you now"

but the one that has stuck with me was from a parent:

"It was so great seeing you at church this Sunday"

I have been sleeping on the couch since I had my surgery due to it being easier to access everything on my own and keep my leg elevated more. I find myself waking up every morning frustrated that I can't walk, frustrated that the breathing tube scrapped my throat raw, and frustrated just because I can be. But sure enough as soon as I pull out my bible and read a little scripture or go through a devotional that I have set up through my phone my mood instently changes and that's how I know Satan is on my case as soon as I am awake. He sees what I am doing and the platform God is helping me build through all these surgeries but I decided I am going to PREVAIL, and nothing, NOTHING is going to stop me short of my dreams.

I really thought the pain would have gone down by now but it hasn't and now that I'm off pain killers I noticed my shoulders that I previously had surgery on are getting sore from the crutches and my right knee is starting to hurt from me hoping around on one leg. Hopefully getting my stitches out next Tuesday will help with all the tenderness ... until then I just gotta suck it up.

It's gonna look great with flip flops don't you think!