It's been a while since I've updated this blog but I feel the need to not only catch myself up but also the random people who read it every once in a while. Since the last time I wrote on here I've graduated from college and got my degree, competed at the NCAA National Championships, became an All-American, had surgery on my labrum in my right hip, went through 2 months of rehab, and started my victory lap of college for my final year of track and completion of my second degree. Talk about a crazy few months!!!
PRESENT DAY
Last week was my first day back in the ring with a shot put in my hand and Nikes on my feet. By the time the session was over I was convinced I would never be able to throw competitively again based on my pain levels and tears in my eyes ...
So I decided to handle it in the only way I knew how. I have been on my knees non stop since surgery but especially since last wednesday just surrendering every ounce of my sport that I may have been holding back and just letting God give me peace regardless of the outcome I may find as the season progresses...
Today I threw, which isn't my normal day to throw since it's not a lot of rest from my squat workout but I decided to take Fritz up on the deal anyways. I walked into the session pretty hesitant, even though I was repeatedly telling myself today is a new day. So I went and put on a my wrap/brace for my hip, taped my wrists and started the session. When I put on the wrap/brace it was the weirdest thing, I got this feeling of security and comfort not from the brace but solely from the Lord. I Literally threw right under my PR and almost did it pain free but what was amazing is that it almost fun again. I haven't felt like that in a long long time. Knowing that the past couple years have not only been a physical battle but also a mental/emotional battle competing I couldn't help but to have a sigh of relief. A relief from the pressures I put on myself and those around me to be great. But today I felt as if I partially got my form of worship back. What a blessing.
It's odd to have this feeling of peace when I know I'm not in the clear injury-wise. But I definitely have this peace about it that keeps me going. Today is really the first day where I feel like being persistent in prayer, being diligent in His word, and intentional in knowing Him more is something that isn't really tangible so to speak but literally something He does give us that we can feel.
I completely understand that it's our fleshly nature to worry and be anxious but I can't help but sit and wonder why we do. God has it all under control anyways if we are obedient. Aww it's just simply mind-blowing to me! God is beyond faithful even when we least expect it.
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