Hope

Throwing is something that releases me from the outside world. It gives me a place of comfort and security from the chaos around me. It gives me hope, it allows me to be me for those 10 seconds I'm in the ring.
Yesterday I got a piece of that hope back, I got a piece of me back I think. We did some walk through Souths and then some regular non-reverse slow Souths with a 6 lb shot. I dropped some at 16 meters. Not bad for zero strength, not throwing forever, no left side block, and going super slow.
I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster and I never know what the day is going to bring. But I'm going to keep on pushing myself with extra workouts and a heathly diet and do everything in my control is make myself the best I can be.