Post - Op

The Beginning

The stitches came out with ease which was a nice change.

I have been getting along great without the crutches and finally got the okay to get out of the boot at the appointment.

So far it sounds like a good appointment huh? The following says otherwise :

At the last appointment the Dr. made it sound like I would be throwing and testing out my foot by next week to see if I needed the next surgery and then either rushing into the surgery or waiting it out if it was tolerable til Summer so I could compete at Big 12s.

This appointment he said I had to wait 4 weeks to test it out and he won't re-evaluate my foot until December 20th. If you do the math that takes me out of contention of having a chance to compete at Big 12s all together.

The frustration didn't set in until I got into the parking lot. All I could do was say "Mom, how is this happening again, why can't my body just let me do what I love?"

BUT

I can say I had an inner peace that told me everything is going to work out for good. I know that was God's peace (Romans 8:28). I think this was the first time I realized that I had truly given God my sport. He comforted me in a time where my heart should have been in chaos but it was content. It wasn't happy but it was content. God is going to use me through this somehow. I don't how but I can feel it building inside of me. I'm going to beat the odds. I'm going to make one more comeback no matter what the medical data says.

Today took a turn I wasn't quite expecting. My trainer sat me down and walked me through all my options:

1. Have the surgery now and loose my chance at competing at Big 12s at home in front of all my friends and family most likely.

2. Try to wait it out and compete at Big 12s then have the surgery in the summer.

3. Sit this entire year out and see if it gets better and then if the surgery is needed we will re-evaluate. (basically see if it heals itself)

4. Walk away from track and come to terms with this injury knowing it is a disabling injury that not many athletes have come back from.

Thoughts:

Right now it's too early for me to decide on an option but I'm planning on #2 and hopefully by God's grace I will be able to tough it out until May so I can compete at Big 12s.

Until then I'm going to continue to pray, pursue God as much as He is pursuing me, and do everything within my power to make this comeback a reality.