Suiting Up

PT today was a disaster. I got new restrictions and couldn't even come close to hitting them. The pain radiating down my arm, into my elbow that makes my hand go numb is getting old. It's not only painful and uncomfortable it's making it hard to stretch so I can gain range of motion and hit those restrictions. We are still doing stuff with the stick and we added in the pulley system today. Chad said he is going to keep a close eye things and if it doesn't start to look up in a week or so we'll have to figure something else out and get a new game plan.

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I think reality finally hit a little bit today when I realized Indoor is coming up and everyone will be putting on our purple and white uniforms and getting to compete. I want to do my thing so bad. It makes my heart ache knowing I won't be doing that for quite sometime. My passion just got stripped from me once again. In a blink of an eye or in my case a turn can change everything. I never miss a rep in the weight room and I never cheat myself in conditioning like some of the team that will be suiting up yet I find myself on the stands watching. I just don't get it. Maybe I'm not supposed to get it. But I want to get it. And I want to get it now. I pray over and over again and beg to just have a healthy season. All I want is one healthy season so I can prove myself then hang it up. I feel like that's not to much to ask for. But until I get to do that I will not have any contentment with how my career was left hanging.